.nafas.

Tonight, I know.  A 27 year-old me,  still trapping in the memories of  15 year-old me.  I do not know; no  I surely do not want to make a move  into a new world.  I am still on this side,  behind the line of everything.  A 27 year-old me  still the same as  15 year-old me. 

I am exhausted.  I thought I was okay.  But, nope.  No.  They said, it's okay for not being okay.  No, it is not.  It is not.  Please, I am tired.  I'm begging you, please.  Help me.

aku rasa, dah tiba masanya  untuk aku kunci tempat ini.  sementara atau selamanya,  aku tak pasti.  terima kasih untuk segalanya,  sang strangers. 

I'm sorry.  You must be tired being me.

I want to disappear.  Let me disappear.  Even for while.