[492]

Wearing her invisibility cloak again, 

leaving a dandelion in strangers' pocket. 

So she can mark her presence in their heart. 

So she can sure her existence without no one notice. 

---

Unknowingly, a thread from her invisibility cloak 

tied her to each of the stranger. 

Burden her heart as she can't let them go. 

She can't let them go since she loved them all. 

But, she knew she needed to cut the thread, 

so she can be free. 

Wouldn't they hate her? Could she?

[488]

Despite everything, she refused to be loved.

[487]

I never lose hope. 

I only lose some faith in myself. 

Making an effort? 

I'm not even trying. 

“Your saviour is in the mirror”, 

I once believed this. 

But how can I be the one 

when I'm not looking for one?

[474]

The heart once emptied, 

but not anymore. 

I promise. 

I hope so. 

[472]

Let me focus for one thing this time.

Let me repair that another thing, 

when I am calm. 

Let's hope, 

There is enough time for me.

[468]

Maybe I shouldn't turn my back from you. 

Maybe I should push myself to hold you. 

Then, we will be okay.

[466]

I'm sorry. 

Only today I learned 

you were in pain as much as I was. 

That our wounds mirrored each other. 

We are truly meant for each other.

Sharing the same hatred.

[465]

When you're too broken and you saw another broken soul, and all you did was just give a look to them -- 

You will live your life like usual. Things will move like usual. No one will pay attention to you and your broken part. Even yourself forget about it. Don't waste time mulling over it. 

You lost empathy too.

[464]

I've been choking with my own words. 

This resentment is too strong. 

I am no longer your loyal soldier.

[463]

Remember Him. 

Have faith. 

Heart shall be guided. 

Souls shall return. 

Become whole.

[462]

Broken bones. 

Shattered limb.

Crippled heart. 

Soul never home. 

[461]

"All you need is, to find yourself first." 

How can I find myself when everything inside me is so messed up? 

I am an empty shell full of tightly knotted twisted threads, with one big hole.  
Even my shadow wants to distance themselves from me.

[457]

Thought I have tried so hard. 

But it's never been enough. 

Not good enough.

[455]

Or, what if that's the real me. 

And I just hated it? 

[454]

People say they only can see nice things in me. 

People say. 

But I don't listen to them. 

Yes, I am not. 

People say but they do not know the real me. 

I put a mask over a mask. 

Still put the same mask over and over again. 

No, they do not know. 

That I am not. 

[453]

I don't know her. 

But I have read her struggle. 

She knows she's wrong. 

And she wants to make things right. 

She wants to be better. 

And I do understand her. 

Because I want to be better too. 

So, I pray for her. 

Like I pray for myself. 

Hoping the best I will get, 

she will get the same too.

Because Allah holds every heart. 

[452]

We tend to regret decision we've made before. Because we felt like we could do better. But you know what, we couldn't. That was our first time. New things happen to us, of course we didn't know what to do. Of course we tripped a little bit. And made mistakes. 

Regrets are natural. To live with it but not to dwell in it. To get up and to be the better version from our yesterday. 

Inspired after watching Thirty-nine Ep. 7

[447]

Because rather than being a flower, being put in a vase, where's the beauty captivated and watched by passerby, she chose to be like a dandelion seeds. Can't be seen through the eyes, fleeting directly to people heart. Elevating spirit. And because what's in the heart, stay. 

Inspired from IU, Holssi

[446]

In the middle of busiest road, I looked around. Each of the crowd looks so cool like they have purposes. And then, there was you. Shining so bright more than anyone fixated my eyes. 

Suddenly I didn't feel alone. 

Because there were you, look so lost, and miserable. Just like me.

[442]

"Sorry, you came at the wrong time."

The heart without fully healed 

could hurt another heart.