11.10.20

[375]

Tidak cukupkah dengan hati ku membeku, 
mengapa perlu juga dijadikan langkah ku kaku? 

Aku sudah tersasar ke tengah landasan, 
menanti dilanggar keretapi dari kedua-dua arah.  

Bagaimana perlu aku memohon? 
Dicairkan hati, 
atau digerakkan langkah? 

Selamatkan aku? 

[374]

This place is temporary. 
The sadness is temporary. 
All the happiness too. 

As much as I want only happiness 
in this temporary time, 
I have to accept the sadness 
will come in the same way. 

As much as You make me enjoy the happiness, 
help me to endure the sadness so much more. 

10.10.20

[373]

Your Songs
Fly high to the sky
Your songs have reached us

We are once a child with our heads down 
We are once a child who forgets to cry
We are still like a child play with riddles of life 
But have understand a little bit about ourselves

You have found us
Every word in your night letters 
Have found us
Help us to walk again 
Help us to love again

Between this boundary of times and places
Where our anchor finally drops
Where the "I miss you" and "Take care" 
is not just a statement without meaning
Without knowing faces and names 
We have found us

We have grown so dazzling and beautifully 
And we will keep growing side by side 
Like the name you give to us
The violet flowers that give you strength


This moment 
Every moment
Under your name 
Our heart with no wrinkles
Will keep on shining 

--- 
A poem inspired from/consists of lyrics from various IU's songs. Ehem more to my favourite IU's songs. 

5.10.20

[372]

(i) 
I have no right, to call out their names, 
When it was me who shut myself out first.


(ii) 
I ran too far. Away from the crowd. 
I ran too far. Then when I looked back, 
there was no one behind. 

And I, just standing here, out of breath. 
Hoping for someone could pick me back. 


(iii)
They do not know. 
But, in some other night, 
I was thinking of them. 

They do not know. 
Because, I was shutting them all. 


Them, who once made me happy.

[371]

makin bertambah umur, makin banyak orang orang yang pernah dahulu berada dalam hidup aku, yang aku pernah sayang, yang aku dah buang sekarang. 

buang bukan kerana apa. 
kerana aku yang mengasingkan diri. 
aku jauh kan diri aku dari semua orang. 
sebabnya apa, aku pun taktahu. 
aku cuma rasa, aku suka hidup seorangan. 

tapi entah macam mana. 
sekarang ini aku menjadi rindu. 
rindu pada setiap satu orang orang itu. 

cukup ke dengan hanya, aku mengharapkan kehidupan yang baik untuk mereka tanpa mereka mengetahuinya? 
tanpa mereka mengetahui bahawa aku masih memikirkan tentang mereka sekali sekala?